Shame has covered us, we want to fight Ukrainian sides: Euronews coverage with Russians in Ukraine

Andrey Siorkine wants to join Ukraine in the fight against Russian invasion, but every time he goes to sign for it, he's been declined.

The reason? He's Russian.

I've already gone to register on the list of people who want to fight beside Ukraine at least five times, but they always send me back because I have a Russian passport”, says Sidonicine, a Kiev resident.

Andrey is one of dozens of Russian citizens who live in Ukraine and are willing to take up arms to fight their former home.

For many of them, the Russian invasion in Ukraine is a heartbreaking moment that is bringing consequences to how they see a place they lived until yesterday, and it turns into an enemy.

As long as it's accepted on the war volunteers' list, Porcikrin legged to help Ukrainians. He joined the group of volunteers who are preparing Molotov cocktails.

If that happens, God forbid, if Russian troops come in here [in Kiev], I'd like to meet them with guns, not hands”, he says.

And while the Sidonian couple are willing to fight for their new home in Ukraine, there are those who feel ashamed.

The 43-year-old Maria Trouchnikova, an English teacher who has lived in Ukraine for 20 years, says she has been experiencing an identity crisis.

“Turp, pride for Ukraine has swept me deep”, she says, adding that she feels terribly dry based on her nationality.

Saha Alekseyeva, who now lives in Lviv, says even safer feels in Ukraine than in Russia, where he feelsA different war develops.

Of course, we're here much worse physically and mentally than people in Russia. But at least, we believe there is a future here, until in Russia there is no”, she says.

And for Galina Jabin, the Russian who lives in Harchiv, it's just embarrassing to say today that you're Russian.

I'm extremely angry, ready to jump on the tanks with my bare hands, but there are no tanks here, there are only air attacks”, she says.

I have a hard time talking to someone right now. My family is inviting me back to Russia, but they don't seem to understand why I don't want to go back”, she says.

Yulia Kutsenko, director of a kindergarten in Kiev, says her mother and sister support Ukraine and they live in Moscow but adds that he doesn't understand how they're doing more to break Putin's regime”.

I'm too scared of them, but I'd like to see them in protest (against Putin)”, she says.

Sidonian, the first character of this Euronea report, goes further: he hopes to see the Russian state's cough.

“I can't say that Putin alone is guilty of this happening” with the order of invasion in Ukraine, because that's not true”, he says.

We have allowed this seed to grow My myth about a Russian emperor, He says. /Euronews/Periscope