Mother, I died!

Mom, I'm sorry, but I'm leaving you and this life! I'm leaving knowing it was my fault and my grief: - What if my life was different? But it's all right because I admit it:

I'm out! I got you. You chose it or I chose it. I loved her, I didn't want her, I got married! He took me. I didn't cry. Dad beat you too. Put me down again. Don't tell Dad and brother. Maybe they get bored or maybe they blame me.

Mom gave me a rich man. You were so happy to think of me. Thank you. True, mother black, there was bread, but I was never satisfied. I missed something in that family with everything. Nino beat me up! Neon beat me again and again. Perhaps she loved me because of jealousy.

Mother killed me! Don't expect me to pay for killing me. I got a rich man. You come out innocent too fast.

Mom gave me a poor man. He took me. It's not your mother's fault. We have nothing to eat. Mother killed me! Don't expect me to pay for the crime. He's really going to jail, but it's gonna be his paradise. There is safe food and shelter in prison. He killed me and was rewarded with Paradise.

I am divorced! Beat me. I know! Dad and brother will never forgive me, but at least you, mother, understand me. I'll be fine. I have a defense warrant. I have the country with me

Mother killed me! I didn't know the ordinance was just a piece of paper and I was actually more endangered than ever. Police don't have time to deal with me, a drop of water in the endless ocean.

I'm sorry. I'm in love with a married man. I'm the other one! I loved him, he killed me! I should have died because I have sinned. The whole world will crucify me and curse me, but at least you, under my heart, you weep in silence.

Mother thought of me? You have kept me in the boat for nine months. You have fed me with your blood. With your bosom. You thought I was a boy who gave me blood those nine months in your body? Sorry, Mom. Mother, I'm out of this life, but don't worry. I was born wrong and you all survived.

Mother black woman! You kept me in the flesh, you raised me with sacrifice, and now you're giving me your hands on the ground. Just please don't say anything to Dad. He'll be disappointed by me because he doesn't kill anyone and he won't eat my bread. Don't tell your brother. He's young, he's hot-headed. I'll think and act crazy. Be our last secret, my mother.

But only you forgive me. I'm your baby. That I know all people after I shed tears for my death will blame me, bury me deeper and more in the dark than I am now. It's normal! I did something that doesn't hurt anyone. I've been cursed since I was born a female in a masquerade. <

Mother I died! Don't at least forget me. You just don't blame me, you just remind me even if I get killed after I die, you understand me.

You should've killed me to the east to cry that day and stop accusing me of ballet. I have sins of mother, and our society does not forgive them, and after death.

Mother I died! Mom, I didn't die. I was killed with silence. It's not the end of the world. A girl, a woman, a woman, a wife, a sister, a friend died. I'll do the same thing tomorrow. I'll forget another one.