His son's letter to his terminally ill mother: Don't go please

Parents are the most expensive people we have, but sometimes the time, the work, the difficulties make us see “and not forgive the love they so desperately need.

The following letter is the letter of a boy to his already ill mother with an incurable disease.

Hold your tears and hug or call your parents and tell them how much you love them and appreciate them before it is too late.

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We're not a family that's easy to communicate with. When I was a kid and you didn't let me cry because that upset you so much.

Even now you have a bold expression on your face. Just once, the last time you were in the hospital, you let yourself go. You cried and said it was hard for you to have courage.

I hugged you and I wanted to tell you that you can cry and you can let your tears flow, but at that moment you stopped an unconscious nurse who ruined that private and special moment we were experiencing.

When the nurse left, you pissed yourself again and that moment was lost. I'm still sorry about that.

I want to say thank you for being my mother. All those years, all the dinners you've made me, even though you never liked cooking.

Thank you for coming to my concerts. Thank you for all the bills you gave me when your dad wasn't paying attention. About your funny nature. Because you were never vulgar, cruel, or unkind. For worshiping the crossword puzzles and birds they sang, but also the horses, cats, dogs, and red wine and swimming, or the warm weather and gardening.

I mean, I'm sorry. Forgive me for every angry look I gave you when I was a thankless and ashamed teenager, yet young enough to take you for good. I'm sorry for any trouble you've experienced because of me.

You fought your illness for a long time. Now you're in a difficult place. At a time when you have to make the most of your day. Now, you've accepted what's going on.

And surprisingly, that's good. Very often we have good days. You're in a lot of bed, but you have no pain, not yet. You watch your favorite TV shows and enjoy different foods. I appreciate every moment you live and enjoy.

At some stage in my life I wanted to cut myself off from you and all that's happening. I tried to cool my heart. But now I think I love you more than ever. And there's a lot of love in our shelter.

You and Dad are now closer than you ever were. Now he's taking care of you, just as you always have. We all take care of you and want to do our best, because that's the least we can do to reward you for all the good you've done to us.

You're not perfect, but you're the only mother I've got and I tremble for fear I might lose you. I can't imagine seeing you in pain. There is still hope in my soul that your pain can be averted.

When I see older mothers than you, I'm jealous. Why wasn't my and so happy at a very old age. But on the other hand, there are people who lost their mother when they were 5, 10 or 20 years old, and I realize I was lucky to have you until I was 45. At least we had each other all this time.

Also, I feel happy that this time we have time to prepare to lose each other. I can't imagine the world without your love in it. I don't want you to go.

But I'm gonna have to accept reality and let you go. I'll try to be as brave as I can, always standing by. I love you. And when you leave, I'll miss you.

Your son...