A letter to Mom: It makes me crazy to find the fucking man.

I'm going crazy, I'm 28 years old, and my mom asks me every day why I'm not getting engaged, worse yet why I'm not getting married. I try to overlook her nervous looks.

When I sit next to her to drink the morning coffee and she starts telling me: Well, how many demands I had at your age, girl, I was beautiful, clean, dressed, just changing clothes, passing by and smiling at me.

“I've had a lot of times, but I accepted your father because he was the most charming, most good job, with a good family. . I've been a star and you're a star like me, you're more likely to dress up and not introduce me to anyone. . What's your problem? You want people to talk and say: Her daughter's still single? Only you... find a husband or daughter because that's how God has given her, I won't be with you all my life. You have to start your own family.

Every time you ask me, I say I haven't found the right guy. But Mom's answer, you know...

Then I get some thoughts, I think she's right, but I'm not in love, I haven't met anyone yet to fill my soul.

I knew some but I broke up because I realized I didn't love them. I want a man to give me confidence, to have a job, a good family, a house to put my head in. . but also be handsome.

I don't want to marry and then fail and break up, even though you never know.

I think times have gotten worse claims and maybe I like independence a little bit... in these thoughts I hear a voice talking all the time. It's Mom with her morals. ...and I say to him: Yeah, Mom, I'll find her soon, and then she kisses me.

I don't try to explain to Mom that today's times have changed that I know they're gonna oppose me, but I know reality is like that. Now I'm even more obsessed and I'm... I'm saying that I want to find a man and get married, not just for myself, but to make my mom happy. Bigger hall doesn't there or no... /Tirana Post/